My Life

My family go to hospital looked at him .My family came here and ask how about him . They look him carefully and they cry . Oh MY GOD that is my husband . I say to my family him sick is liver and tuberculois cause the lungs have flex . I never say about that virus and HIV . I closed my mouth that is secret all in my live . Oh GOD help me to be strong , i don't want look to my family i must strong . I try to do that but in my heat all be broken .

two day

Two day we in haspital . My husband still to cough , many medicine in fron of the body .Doctor say i must patient ,they don't know what happen about future . He take many therapy and medicine every hours . Doctor control my husband very carefully . I am afraid cause doctor do it very carefully . Oh GOD my husband sick is very heavy . Doctor only say " they do all for my husband they say i must prei and hope my husband be fine . i think they don't have hope about my husband he sick is very heavy and bad .

medicine

To day i go in pharmacy get the medicine .The medicine is very expensive . I don't have much money . I say to shoper ' idon't have much money please give me a half of the medicine . She give me a half that recipe , that i must pay eight hundred and twenty nine thousand . That is very expensive . that is much money . Than i back to the room . I give that medicine to the doctor . I look him again , i do all for you . Everthing i will do for you . I want you better and live with me .

many therapy he do it

I back in the room and try to strong . He must therapy many medicine , I want him recover , althoug with that virus i love him . I want him to my live . GOD please help my husband . I love him very much althoug him is a gay , may be that is him live . Maybe some time if he is fine and he want go to get another man . I will let him go , couse that is make him happy . I will do it .

The doctor say to me , they try do all to my husband . I must prei to The GOD to help him be better . I look my husband carefully oh GOD him very weak . I belive all to you . You give best to your manicipality . GOD i belive what ever you give to me you give the best . I prei to you , i hope my husband be better .

I

I still confused why him cry like and he want me forgive him . He never make wrong what happen this i don't know . He ask to me many long time before married with me he is lover man . Oh no i afraid he is love man . Oh my GOD he is gay .

I out from that room . I cry and i cann't belived that virus and my husband is gay . Man have married with me is a gay . Oh GOD what is the real , please GOD i hope that is deam and i want get up . but that is true .

my husband

I want angry but i cann't do it . That my husband now is sick . I cry in my heart i cann't belived , but i am in hospital and i so cofused . Why that is to me ? what i do wrong ? why that happen to me GOD ? . I asked but i cann't find answer . That it my life .

This night i speak with him about that virus and him sick . He cry to me amd ask to me . He want me forgive him . I ask to him 'you never drugs , drink an acohol or anthing make that virus but why ? ' .what happen with u .

my life II

Oh my GOD that is true my husband have HIV virus . I still confused what happen with my husband . I feel all be finish now . I cann't belived all my husband have how me . Doctor say he must to take care in hospital . He must do many therapy to him cause the body is very weak .He have complicated in liver and tuberculosis and that is very bad . he must to take care in hospital and must fast .

he have room in sal room with many people and sick same like him . I am very sad . I still can belived that in my live . Oh GOD that is true in my live , what will i do ? . I look that place many people like him and more than him . Not long in my husband room beside him bed i hear cry , the family have cry cause she is death . The doctor cann't save her . I sad how that is to me , what will i do ? .

I look my husband and i don't know what will i do . I look that body is very thin , the face and very weak . Oh GOD please help my husband to be better .




to be continued